The anatomy of sorrow... and joy...

Pre-Scriptum: To really get the "feel" of what I'm trying to say here, read this post with THIS track playing in the background. Loop it till you finish the post.

This post shall not be known for the most coherent or orderly presentation of thoughts, or even for the requisite conformity to the heading, but Inshaallah it will succeed in putting on record all thats in my head right NOW (08/06/2007 -- 1:21pm).


Sorrow and joy... It has been a question thats been in my head for a LONG time now... what IS the default state of the human mind, when its unaffected by any form of external stimuli? Is it happy, sad, confused, static, or what... What is the shade of my mind when its uncoloured/unpolluted by the world...
I personally think, without any concrete proof of course, that it is in a state of deep and viscous thought, bordering on sorrow. Not really the point here, so moving on...

Coming to the brand of sorrow derived from the inputs of the world, I feel it is composed of many ingredients. There is always some form of regret/remorse involved, followed by the weight of the entire world, alias your own eyes looking down on you, and the all important elixir for all joys; the sense of disproportionate prioritization/lack of perspective.

Also, living in the past, as most of us generally do, it is usually inevitable, comparing the self with that of n years ago... looking at how things were somehow different then, and how they're a bit too different now (this is NOT the time to point out semantic anomalies!)... that just sets you up for a nice long evening of despair and helplessness. Added to that, if there's a helping hand around, to prod the little wound with words of gory encouragement, what else does one need...

Another thing which i MUST mention here. This fairy tale journey through the darkest recesses of the human psyche just gets longer, when one finds oneself straitjacketed and spineless, as a consequence of all the "wrongs" that one has committed. As in, one feels accursed to lead a second rate life, with a second rate presence, a voice that must weigh each consequence in the light of all the trash that its master has heaped on himself. Its like the lamb playing with the butcher's kid. It knows its fate is in the kid's hands, and so despite the fact that they share an otherwise friendly relationship, it must live in this sort of terror, that the kid holds the knife above its neck; that in the midst of all the laugh and play, ONE incident of weighted offence, and the game could be over for it. Using this one trump card, that is a consequence of little more than nature's own roullete, the kid has the power to make ANY thing out of the poor little lamb.
Only that in our original case, the circumstance at hand can't always be blamed on nature gambling with our fortunes, rather, the onus falls once again, on the sad man...

HOWEVER, its not as if the inescapable truth that forms the root of all the sorrow cannot be exorcised. THIS, is where the concept of joy (almost obligatory in this post you'll say!) comes in.
I believe there shall ALWAYS (as long as Goodness exists in the universe) be a chance to redeem ones soul from all the thorns and pains that it has been made to go through above. and it is up to that little sad man, to grab that little chance by the scruff of the neck, and make the most of it. No matter WHAT that "helping hand" told you, no matter WHAT you told yourself yesterday, ALWAYS remember, life is NEVER over till its over; and that hope is the fuel that drives the human spirit forward, NEVER let it go. Indeed, it is more important than life itself, for without spirit man is little more than a walking corpse.

Joy, is what one experiences after one has overcome a phase of sorrow/hardship. Thus, without sorrow, there can be no joy.


Sigh... the world seems all alive all over again...! :)

Post-Scriptum: Now, just to get a measure of how it feels after all this writing, you may switch over to THIS track, and DO wait for the hidden track in this once the first song ends. Hope you feel the same way!

Cheers!

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

Kandisa FOREVER!